“I just knew something wasn’t the same.”
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In particular, Jessie discussed how she found out she had miscarried the day before a concert in Los Angeles.
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“I had two scans on the same day, and within the first scan and the second scan, the baby had passed,” she explained.
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Jessie said that she had scheduled a doctor’s visit after waking up one morning and thinking, “Oh, I don’t feel right.”
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“I still had very intense nausea, [but] I just knew something wasn’t the same.”
After the first scan, doctors told Jessie that the baby had a low heartbeat and a “ring” that “often means that the baby will have some sort of disability or deformity.”
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Later in the day, Jessie saw another doctor to receive a second opinion, which is when she found out that the baby had passed on.
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Before her concert the following day, Jessie revealed the news of her miscarriage in a since-deleted Instagram post. “I posted it because I didn’t have anyone to break on,” she recalled. “I didn’t have anyone to just fall apart on and that’s what I needed, that’s what I wanted.”
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In the interview, she also described how she felt after the concert. “I got in the car after the show by myself, and I got home, and I opened my front door, and I closed the door, I fell to my knees,” she said.
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“When I got home that night and I lay there, I’ve never felt so lonely in my life… I just remember laying there, knowing it was still there, but it wasn’t there. That went on for over a week.”
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Jessie also said that she believes the reason why she miscarried is because “I wasn’t supposed to do it alone.”
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“I’m supposed to find someone that wants this as much as I do,” she said. “I’m grateful that I got to experience being pregnant… It’s opened the door for me to love myself deeper.”
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“I’m still processing the whole thing. I have moments of intense sadness and grief, but I also have moments of excitement knowing that I won’t do it alone.”
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Watch the entire interview here.